I want you to keep my heart even if you don't want to give me yours.

Last night was an unforgettable night. One someone says "unforgettable" it doesn't mean great. She came down the steps towards building number 13 with her hair untied and the wind blew which made her hair flow. She wore a blue tank top and gray jeans. I was there and I thought to myself, she's the most beautiful girl in the world. It killed me knowing that she isn't with me. The pain hurts so bad. A soul-hurt, a real-gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart-pain. I can't bear it. But I will NOT give up. No matter how painful it is. I'd die trying.

Ehem.. (clears throat) Not really sure what to say. Night and sleep well beautiful =)

I'm gonna wake up tomorrow morning feeling the worst I can again.

Takotsubo cardiomyopathy, commonly known as broken heart syndrome. People can die of heartbreak.

What can I do to make you love me?

I can't stop the tears.

Spent the whole day with her =)

Had my first paper today. Anyways I'm not here to talk about how the paper went. School ended for my class. It's the beginning of the end and at the same time it's the dawn of a new beginning.

So anyways, I don't think I'm going anywhere close of winning her heart. I don't know. I'm not thinking negative but I guess it's just pure logic. Fuck.. It's not easy anymore. When has it ever been?

I don't know if one day you'll still be there for me (I hope you will). All I know, is you'll have to face your own life, facing college, work (I'll be there to help you through). You'll become a wife to your husband, a mother to your child and I want to thank you, for being part of my life. There is still a time where I picture myself in that image. School boy fantasy of course. I'm that crazy to even think that far. Judge me all you want fellow readers, this boy is in love. BIG TIME.

Exams are very close. Regardlessly, I'm still thinking about you. There's not a day that goes by without me thinking of you. Anyways, hope you're sleeping well now. If you are sleeping though which I'm sure you are. I'll see you on Monday.

Love ya.

She taught me Mathematics today :)

Hey there, I love you.

She looks beautiful as always.

We talked today. We had a long conversation and it kinda made me feel better. I know that I don't have a chance but that doesn't mean I'm giving up. I'll just wait as I always do. Perhaps we won't be together today or tomorrow but maybe we will one fine day.